I Want To Want God's Will

I want God’s will for Terry’s and my life. But I don’t just want His will, I want to *want* to want His will. I have to admit, I have not been doing a very good job with this. You see, I want God’s will as well as “Aimee’s” will. That’s just not how it works.

“Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.” - 1 Thessalonians 5:18 (NLT)

Being thankful in all circumstances is God’s will for me. So why do I struggle with being thankful in the unknown future? Why do I struggle being thankful in the midst of turmoil? I will admit, I have not been thankful in the circumstances we are in, due to the evil acts of others.

But I am supposed to be thankful, because this is God’s will for me. It is pretty humbling and sad for me to realize I am outside of God’s will. I tend to pray more for justice for the evil-doers than thanking God for the lessons I know He will teach me through these circumstances. I want to be better. I want to do better. I want to think better. I want to feel better. I want to act better. In order to be, do, think, feel and act better, I need to be thankful in all circumstances.

If I say I want God’s will but I put caveats on it, I am not wanting to want His will. I want to do what Terry and Aimee want and live where Terry and Aimee want. But not if it is outside of God’s plan for us. I know in my heart of hearts God has an incredibly awesome plan for our lives, and I have no fathomable idea what it is.

Life with Papa is an amazing adventure, and He is madly in love with us. So I need to be strong and courageous and remind myself my hope and my joy comes from Him; I need not worry about the unknown future. When I truly remember this, I allow myself to want to want God’s will. I want you to want to want God’s will, too. I want you to have complete and total trust with your future in His hands. Because He is a Good Good Father and we are loved by Him.