I was recently contacted by a group to speak on their behalf regarding a topic many find extremely controversial. My gut said, “Do it! Say yes, immediately!” My head said, “Better hang on a minute, and think this through … you could lose a lot of readers if you agree,” and my heart said, “What does scripture tell you to do? What would honor Jesus?”
Needless to say, I was overwhelmed with all kinds of emotions regarding this request. I read it out loud to Terry and he asked me, “What do you want to do?” I told him, “I don’t know. I feel tugged in both directions. I think I need to pray about it before I respond, and then likely tell them I need to take some time to pray about it and think about my decision.” Sort of wanting Terry to say, “You should do A or B,” he said, “I love you and will support whatever decision you make.” I sort of laughed and said, “What do you think I should do?” He said, “I think we should both pray about it, but I think you were asked, for a reason.”
We told no one other than Michala about this request, for three days. I wanted solely to seek God’s guidance on this. But when I told Michala and asked her thoughts, she did not hold back. But after telling me her decision she said, “Of course I will pray for you to feel a peace about this. But you have a responsibility to speak the truth based on scripture.”
We are living in such a time of chaos and division, I do not know what to do about it. I can only do the next right thing. If I want to see change, I have to be willing to put myself in uncomfortable situations and admit fear of the unknown is not a worthy deterrent. For so many years, I allowed fear to be the guiding factor of my decision making. Fear of the unknown and fear from bad legal advice I had been given made me do the wrong thing.
Now I want to do the right thing. Even if I am afraid of the unknown, because I know The Holy Spirit is guiding me, not Aimee.
“But as for me, I am filled with power, with the Spirit of the Lord, and with justice and might, to declare to Jacob his transgression, to Israel his sin.” - Micah 3:8 (NIV)
I am still praying for a peace regarding my decision, but I will not make any decisions based on fear. I am filled with power, with the Spirit of the Lord, and with justice and might!
As. Are. You.